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Hi all!

Update on grievance...it's as fun as I last spoke to you all and thank you very much for the love. So many lovely people read this silly little blog of mine and even sent me a texts to check up on me.

 T H A N K   Y O U

The number of hits did scare me and I was afraid people may have taken this as attention seeking or some sad self promotion. Then the fear of being a one hit wonder...I now know how Kings of Leon felt with Sex on Fire...yes completely and utterly relating a few extra hits on this blog to the greatest band in the world, who are in no way a one hit wonder. 

Now there are a few things I've noticed in regards to how people treat you whilst you're grieving 

1. Send a heartfelt text to see how your gong and never hear from them again.
2. Believe that the heart ache ends after the funeral and then you are back to your bright old self.
3. The people who pretend nothing happened to avoid tears in a public place.
4. The people the care and truly understand the agony to loose someone so close to you and check up to see that you are eating and remembering to breath. Thank You!
5. The people ...these are my faves... who have no concept of loss and heart renching grief but yet pick up on the somber tones and use the oportunity to grieve themselves. I guess grief is a strong word, really just have a whine about insugnifacte issues. Or wait for it, tell me of accantances who have been just been diognosed, much older more treatable and more funded illness. Thats irrelivant, pain is pain and I understand that, and loved to be there for these people and their friends of a friend who are ill. The last 6 years I've been there for, the sick, the carers and the friends and family and I've been more than happy to be there I'd would not have it any other way. Can I just have a moment to myself to begin to fatherm what this means to me, to lose someone who was alway there for me and I was there for her... Just Let Me Have A Beat... 

This is hard and its meant to be and I know its a different level of pain for her family, one I've become so close and such a great part of, and I hope I can help now more than ever. This dose make you wiser and stronger and I guess thats the silver lining.

Until my next rant, sorry this took sometime.

lots of love
xx