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Hi ya!!

I'm just procrastinating from this ridiculous job hunt, it's such a vicious mental cycle. I'm mad at myself for staying in a job so long that I've become incredibly bitter. Then I realised I hate job searching, utterly despise it, more than humanly possible and house hunting for that matter but I really like this flat, so it's ok. I developed an up and go type of life style since leaving school, one I got quite good at. Now I can no longer move back to London (there is a massive X on my passport) and because I feel madly in love, it's kept me standing still for longer then I know. I'm so happy that I found love, I find such great peace and comfort in this love and relationship, and this wouldn't have developed if I kept bouncing between hemispheres. Just looking for work in this town is well shit, and I never swear in written text.

Yes, I'm sure it will work out in the end, I am so god damn driven. I'm positive a change is just around the corner. This is the main issue in life at the moment and for that I am great full. I am aware of the injustice of this world and I guess I've been dealing with some of those, which has also contributed to keeping me in Charlie's Ice-cream Factory. This time last year, my best friend was given a number weeks to live, and bless her she stretched it out a further 10 months. Cobie, the greatest god damn fighter we will ever see. I'm so proud of her and her tremendous fight, she has taught me so much and I miss her greatly. #Cobieismyhomegirl I'm so fortunate for so many great blessings in my life, and I'm frustrated that I let one aspect, upstage all the magic my life has to offer.  This I will work on. 

Everything happens for a reason, I very much believe that other wise I would be a true hot mess. It will all be ok, eventually I'll find my in between job and life will continue. 

Thank you for listening. I hope you are keeping well, I really do.

laters lovers

xx

On the Hunt

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Hi ya!!!!!!

You right? 

Are you smacking it in the air? I assume you've been listening to 7/11 by Queen Bee since sunday. It was my saviour during the worst hangover ever ... well in the last few months at least. I've decided to alter my life goals to becoming a dancer for Queen Bee. In my defence, I have been dancing since I was 4, a sold 20+ years of training. However, if I was Destiny Child dance worthy I would actually be in the industry by now and working toward that goal. This song speaks to me and I feel it will move mountains.

I'm just saying don't be surprised if I start recreating her amazing film clips and start uploading them here and on Youtube. I see this happening! #singleladies

In case Beyonce doesn't find me just yet, I have been sending out my little CV in hopes to gain a grown up job. It is slightly difficult, in this town to achieve any my career goals, in all honestly I can't even speak of them because they seem so unrealistic. I lived in London and very much set myself up in the city and worked out the routes into my career. If I was still there I'm sure I would be progressing towards my goals working at Harrods and acting, dancing and blogging and then the universe thought it would be funny to return me home. For the most part, I am great full. Well, I wouldn't have this blog if it wasn't for my amazing boyfriend, so yes I'm very happy to be here.  Totally digressing there, sorry about that, anyway... 

My current CV has a large gap like Georgia May Jagger's front teeth, just on a resume it's not as attractive. I thought I'd make it stand out of the pack with a creative cover letter. I've not really taken a serious approach to finding work here, and just thought I'd have some fun with it. It's unapologetically me, and if my employer doesn't like that, we are all better off finding out straight away. Have a read, I hope it makes you laugh and I hope it finds me a grown up in between job!

Lots of Love

xxx